“My brain is a dumpster fire” is probably the most accurate description I’ve heard lately. That and trying to describe your ongoing/untreated illness(es) as white noise.
Because you’ve been going at it alone for so long you don’t even know how to ask for help. You’re totally fine with a daily pain level of 7/10 and the constant on-edge anxiety.
You’re used to the insomnia. The attention deficit. The apathy. The emotional void.
It’s become part of you. You’ve had it longer than you can remember.
It’s just who you are. I have brown eyes and my brain is a dumpster fire. It’s fact not opinion.
Medical care is so hard to attain, so we just go at it alone. Unmedicated. Undiagnosed. Living every day in a constant state of “this is fine”.
Complacency.
It’s what you have to do to survive. So you do. You push through. It’s been worse. You’ve overcome worse. This isn’t even that bad. You have to say it over and over to remind yourself.
I’m tough. I’ve seen my fair share. This isn’t something I can’t handle. I’ll manage. I’ll survive.
We’re so used to drowning it out that it becomes white noise.
It just is.
We’re not being stubborn. We aren’t actively refusing treatment. We don’t recognize it because it’s always been there. It will always be there. It is part of who we are.
My brain is a dumpster fire.
Maybe…just maybe, I need help to extinguish the flames.
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I don’t care if you’re not religious. What you won’t do is call someone’s faith a fairy tale. You will not mock and insult someone’s way of life. Take your deplorable attitude and unwarrented comments elsewhere !
i am an atheist who’s had a VERY bad relationship with religion. My best friend in the world is a very faithful christian. it’s one of the staples of our relationship, being accepting and loving towards each other’s beliefs, and i know that when she says she will pray for me, she is saying that she loves me enough to ask her god to help me. that’s not an insult, that’s very touching to me. it takes literally no energy for me to be thankful about that.
(Source: stankyleg-deactivated2918973, via squigglydigglydoo)
Don’t tell your daughter that when a boy is mean or rude to her it’s because he has a crush on her. Don’t teach her that abuse is a sign of love.
My mom always taught me yell or fight back. Boys would be mean and I would yell back. I would get my ass pinched and I would smack them as hard as I could.
Who alway got in trouble? Me.
They would call my mother and she always came in and lectures my teachers and threatened to sue for making her miss work and treating me poorly.
She always taught my brothers to respect women. The only fights my brothers ever got in was defending women from someone else.
The school tried to call my father once instead of my mother on us. He came in in his full preacher outfit (being a preacher and all) and gave them an entire sermon on what would Jesus day of he was called in. They decided dealing with my mom was better.
I think my favorite story of this is when some kid snapped my bra and I turned around, didn’t even think about it, and punched that little motherfucker right in the nose.
So naturally, I end up in the principal’s office, refusing to apologize.
“He shouldn’t have put his hands on me and I wouldn’t have hit him!” That’s the only thing I was saying.
These people had the unfortunate luck of catching my dad at home, instead of my mom. So he comes fucking sauntering in there, like he’s Clint fucking Eastwood in some western movie and looks at me.
“Melissa, did you punch him?”
“Yes.” I said.
“Why?”
“Because he snapped my bra strap.”
And he turns his squinty eyed glare to the principal and says, “You’re telling me my daughter is in trouble because that squirrely looking kid put his hands on her and she chose to defend herself? That’s what you are saying to me.”
“Well, sir-” The man kind of stuttered because my dad is kind of intimidating in the quiet sort of way that kind of whispers in the back of your mind that this person could be dangerous. “Melissa did make it physical.”
“No. That kid put his hands on my daughter. Are you saying my daughter cannot defend herself when some boy decides to put hands on her? Is that what you are teaching my girl?”
I didn’t get suspended that day.
*slow clap for excellent parenting*
This is the parent I want to be omg
(Source: bullletproof-love, via cyberneticspacerock)
shout-out to all the trans people that can’t or won’t post a selfie due to dysphora, due to not being out, due to any reason whatsoever that won’t let you. and happy day of transgender visibility!
(Source: jynerzoremade-blog, via necro-nova)
The Governor of Missouri just relieved the entire St. Louis County PD
I originally said “Ferguson PD” - that’s wrong. It’s all of St. Louis County.
State and Federal law enforcement are taking over.
That’s all the tweet from the Governor’s office said.
I suggest you watch the news carefully in the next few hours.
(via theradbee)
i am laughing because i just started imagining a gordon ramsay-like feminist writer who, rather than helping to keep restaurants in business, goes to writers of television shows and films and chastises them for the sexism, racism, and general lack of diversity in their scripts
“YOUR SCRIPT IS AS WHITE AS THE PAPER IT’S PRINTED ON, YOU DONKEY.”
“THIS WHOLE CAST HAS MORE SAUSAGE IN IT THAN FLIPPING OKTOBERFEST!”
(Source: rm-renfield, via meefling)
I think restricting how much executives make as a low multiple of lowest pay in the company is a fantastic idea.
Let’s fucking do this, but ADDENDUM: among the employees they have to count interns. If they don’t pay their interns, then THEY DON’T GET PAID EITHER.
Totally down with this.
I have been advocating this for at least twenty years now.
(via punlich)
lookatthisfuckingoppressor-blog:
Oh so many reasons.
1) it equates the anger of the oppressed to the hate of their oppressors.
2) it blames oppressed groups for their oppression. Bigotry doesn’t exist because people hate bigots. It exists because oppressed people oppose it. It exists because of bigots and because of privileged folks being complicit or tacitly condoning systems of oppression.
3) it’s fundamentally untrue. Hatred of oppression doesn’t lead to more hatred; it leads to progress.
4) it is used to attack any attempt by oppressed people to obtain liberation. Point out that something or someone is repulsively racist and all of a sudden you’re “breeding more hate”.It’s a fundamental misrepresentation of reality that blames victims and excuses fucked up behavior.
Uuh… it’s hard to explain, it’s a burden that just appears out of nowhere and fucks you up for days. Ignoring it is not easy. It takes over you and even tends to distort your perception of reality turning it into a living nightmare. It’s awful and terrifying.
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